Crazy life

So my family and I have been completely overwhelmed recently with my grandmother being sick. She has been in the hospital for 3 months and honestly last weekend was the toughest time yet her ammonia levels were extremely high and she was not responsive which led my family to be very prayerful and worried. Well God came through and her ammonia levels dropped incredible amounts from 90 to 32. It took a few days for her to become aware of what was going on around her and then she was ready to go! She is doing much better now and God is answering one prayer after another.

So apart from classes and being at the hospital I went to work and those kids happened to make everything seem okay. I often think I miss the little things in life and I was outside with all of the three and four- year- olds. One of the little boys as I pushed him on the swing looked up and says look at the tree Ms. Meaghann it is so pretty as the sun shines on it. Another little boy that afternoon came up to me telling me that "Jesus was changing the sky colors so we might need to go inside when it gets dark." They just take life for what it is and I wish I still thought like a child at times. As adults we want to have answers to everything and know how things work and it is not necessary all the time.. I just love when kids tend to bring to my attention the beauty in nature around us and it seems to make everything seem right in the world.

I will definitely have to update you more soon but I am exhausted!

9/11

Just reminiscing nine years ago 2819 people died from terrorist attacks. I remember this day all too well, I was sitting in Mr Shelton's Biology class and he turned the tv on because there was no better way to explain to us than to let us see. I just remember everyone was distraught and filled with tons of questions. I can't even imagine what I would do in a situation like that. It is even heartrending and gut-wrenching to see it replayed on tv today. I also remember going a year after the attacks to what was then ground zero with Micah and Kristy. Lining the sidewalks with memorials tons of pictures, notes to loved ones, paintings commemorating those who were lost, and we put a flag signed by the weag team out there. I also remember there was an incredible respect for those lost it was an eerie silence. I remember a cross standing in the middle of where the towers used to stand.My heart and prayers go out to those who are still dealing with the heart ache of loss of loved ones.

On a very VERY much lighter note I went to Jacob's soccer game today with Carmen Jenny Kyle and the kids! He is good and seems to love it!! I am proud of him. Then we went to Olive Garden for lunch, and it was delicious. I really am glad to have friends like them they are great!

Between classes work and youth stuff I have an extremely busy chaotic life right now and love every minute of it.I hope everything is great with yall!

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 

Time to Catch up!!

So Friday I babysat for one of my favorite families at work! They are the best! Then took a fun trip with Nikki and Joni to Ikea on Saturday. I purchased a lamp that is gray and has white embroidered flowers on it, it is fun!

Also another task on my plate this week is I am painting my room a light bluish grayish color! Last night I met Allyson Cary up to go to her apartment to get a dresser I bought from her. We are carrying this thing down about three flights of stairs and trying multiple ways to fit it in my car. Well much to our dismay even though my seats in the jetta went down and everything it was still literally a centimeter or two too short.. ugh. We are just standing there trying to figure out what we could do instead of carry it back up the steps. Luckily there was a random guy and a girl up in the balcony watching up struggle and get irritated. He yelled down to us hey where are you guys taking that dresser. We took it to Allyson's house which happened to be about ten mins way and he was like I can help you I have a truck. We couldn't believe it!

We were so stoked to have this guy and girl help us so we didn't have to go through this again.. hahah!

On another note I might be going to a cycling class at the gym thursday... a little nervous but we will see how that goes.

I have nothing else for now. Hope you have a spectacular rest of your week!!

Worship

I have been doing a lot of thinking recently about worship. I have a hard time remembering that worship is everything I do. All of my thoughts, actions, motives everything! I recently read a book that really opened my eyes called The Air I Breathe by Louie Giglio. I really like the way he was just blunt about certain aspects of worship. One quote that has stuck with me has been

" We have to think carefully about what we're saying...what we're singing. And who we're singing to. Sometimes we would be better off saying nothing than standing there and lying to the face of God. Our worship would honor Him more if we stopped singing and realigned our heart with His.".. what a powerful thought.

Something is going to grab your affection. Someone is going to captivate your heart and mind. One thing is going to rise to the surface of your values and drive your life, aiming your steps and determining your destiny. Do we have our future based on our desires? The perfect Christian relationship, the perfect job, perfect friends etc that will define our destiny? OR are we focusing and trusting and letting Christ be the center of our affection and captivate our hearts completely? Because when we choose to do things our way we are essentially telling the world and God that He is not good enough to lead our lives and meet our needs. Whatever you worship, you become obsessed with. Whatever you become obsessed with, you imitate. And whatever you imitate you become. Whatever you value most will ultimately determine who you are.

When our worship is small we have in a sense reduced God in our hearts and have clouded our vision and allowed our hearts to become distracted. The best thing about the God I serve is that Even though He is the God who holds galaxies in place with His power, He also invites us anytime to look up to Him and behold His greatness. He invites us to call Him by name and be His friend.

Ultimately true worship is a whole-life response to God's greatness and glory. A response that taps our mind, our soul, our heart of passion, and our strength.

I am going to leave you with another quote:

" If you don't like who you're becoming, take a quick inventory of things on the throne of your heart. If you want to be more and more like Jesus keep your worship focused squarely on Him."

After reading this man my worship stinks. I pray that we can all reset our focus solely on Christ and what He has done for us and respond accordingly.

Hope this encourages you as much as it encouraged me..

Choir Tour 2010

This past week has been great we went on choir tour with the youth to florida. It was a fun trip. I really loved hanging out with the kids and getting to know them better. I am so proud of them just when you think you barely have enough energy to push through the are all fired u with energy for the show. They are so great! There were tons of fun memories to come away with. A quick not detailed list is: Bus games. IPOD Kareoke. Near Death Experience getting to Busch Gardens with Rebekah driving :) . Black Widow pranks. Sam and Josh being shut in a walk in freezer. 101 questions. sample sentences for word of the day. story time on bus two. Just talking to kids and getting to know their life. Daytona Beach. Being on the NOT sauna bus. Rudy and Palmer. Sam Leper running into an automatic door and breaking it. I am sure there is more but thats all the came to mind right now.

Overall I got closer with a lot of the youth over this week, and for that I am greatful! They are a great group of kids.

Then Saturday night I got to hang out with Rebekah Sarah and Tims family. They had a fish fry for Timothy's boyscout ranking! It was great to just hang out the fish was delish. Then we watched princess diaries and took it easy.

Long Time No Update

Wow it has been awhile.. So a lot has been going on in my life this summer. I've been working full time and it is great! So awhile back I have had a lot of questions about what I am supposed to be doing with my life right now and it is kind of crazy the small ways that God can speak to you. I was driving and this car in front of me had a Bible verse for their license plate which was Proverbs 3:5-6 and it says: Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, seek HIS will in all that you do and he will show you which path to take. then right next to that car was a car with a license plate with a verse John 15:5 that says I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. Oh hey Jesus thanks for that reminder that I really need to seek you not only in all that I do but especially in this time of my life. It just blows my mind the little ways that Jesus speaks to us.

On a lighter note, I took a day off work and Nikki, Rebekah,and I went to water country for the day! It was so fun! Might I add it is a season pass woo woo!

Friday night I went to my friend Jenny from work her son Jacob's baseball game. They were in the tournament and they won. They moved on to the "world series" they placed second so I am very proud of him.

Then Saturday night I went to comchap with Renee and Wags spoke on Jonah. It was such a great much needed sermon for me. I need to realize the baby steps matter. Sometimes I forget that. I also need to remember the power God holds. I think growing up in church it is often easy to skim through certain aspects of Christianity and not even give it much thought and God's power is definitely one of the things I need to remind myself of.

Thought of the Day

So Sunday Shane was teaching on Matthew 6:9-14 which is the Lord's prayer. I decided to read that whole chapter and it is crazy the things you can see when you are not simply reading but soaking up the word.
Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy. May your kingdom come soon. May YOUR will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today the food we need, and forgive us our sins as we have forgiven those who sin against us . And don't let us yield to temptation, but rescue us from the evil one.

To begin with a few things stick out to me, May YOUR will be done. Do we really want God's will for our lives? Things won't always be easy. We won't always get things to work the way we want them to. But it doesn't say May you make our lives easy, it says May YOUR will be done.

Next, Give us today the food we need. Do we live in faith that God will provide or do we try to make sure everything will work out with a planned life? I admit it is hard for me to not be in control of what happens but perhaps that is the best way. I can make so many things go wrong if I try to control every aspect of my life, I need to give up everything to him and trust that he will give me what I need.

Finally, here is the thing I have a hard time with holding grudges and don't forgive really easily. So in verse 12 it says: and forgive us of our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us. Then in verse 14-15 it says: If you forgive those who sin against you your heavenly Father will forgive you. BUT if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins.

If I hold things against other people, then God is going to hold my mess ups against me.. And of course I screw up a million times a day, and no sin is greater than any other (except blasphemy) so why would I hold myself to a higher standard?
Just some random things floating through my head I thought I would share :) Hope everyone is having a great day and enjoying this beautiful weather